Random Shit About My Life
Yesterday was a GOOD fucking day. Life is easy going. Grades are descent. Waaay less problems, but i still feel like i’m incomplete.. I know something is bothering me but i just can’t say what. Wow, daaamn check me out on Tumblr tryna talking about how i’m feelin’. I guess this is where i’m gunna go from now on to vent cuz there aint anyone for me anymore. i got friends but i dont got that 1 friend i always trusted with anything. Ride to Die, Brothers, Bestfriends. shoooot. Middle school life was good with this nigga. I miss this foo. i feel like i lost him. (no homo) High school hit us pretty hard. Middle school is still a kid life, and just adventure. High school = reality. Real talk some of you guys gotta stop calling everyone you fucking meet bestfriends. That annoys the shit outta me. I hate how people tryna fight each other for talking shit. Talking shit is natural for every human being and you see these people tryna check erryone for talking shit when there talking shit as well. its bullshit. so hypocritical. I realize that i wanted to be friends with this foo looong as i can but it seems like it aint gunna last that long. I”M always the one making effort for us to chill and fix things between us. I have to do everything. I just want to scream my lungs out. Fraustration is killing me. i met a cool kid name Derek. I have this feeling that i can trust him. Like Ride to die, Brothers, Bestfriends told me TAKE RISKS! Reminicing is saaaad for me cuz things are fun nowadays but it was better in the past. My past got me where i am , and actually i believe things happen for a reason but i really hoped that this shit wouldn’t happen outta all the things. He’s a good guy. Until high school life got his Ego big as Kanye West and Beyonce’s. i’m worrying so much about High school but when i go to College i can be ANYONE i want to be. No one will know you there. You can be a jock, nerd, player or a druggie. ANYTHING! and yet this high school bullshit is bothering me. Sometimes i wish i can go to a school where i dont know anyone and just start from scratch but i dont wanna be a pussy running away from my problems. its just that i’m trying to fix it but he’s not. he feels like everything is good. I dont even know if i matter to him anymore but shiet, i’m making this a big deal. i’m stupid. Well life can be better. i just wish things goes my waaay and yet its going his way and its not satisfying me one bit. since he’s happy shouldn’t i be? I guess things right now are the best thing going for him. Athlete, Girls, Grades, Attention. you need to experience the down side of life to understand how other people feels and i met this girl! she’s pretty chill. tryna cramp her into my plans and shit but i’m so busy. if she had texting she’d be going through my mind all day. too bad she doesnt =P. Well this is about it for now. Life works in mysterious ways.
“See i just get high and think of the good times.” I would prefer this but my “friends” will bitch at me =))
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